Frank the frank one

Frank the frank one.

Companies come up with visionary statements to align employees’ visions with their goals. Am I truly working and living towards my goals?

I do know my purpose in life, i.e. my dreams.  But I have not been monitoring my progress.  Perhaps like Benjamin Franklin, I should try checking it everyday.  Now I am not even sure if I am heading in the right direction. Was I moving further away from my goals?

The purpose of my life is to promote love.  There is no better place to start than in your own home.  But look at me, I am still single!  Will I ever find him?  

I attended an international dragon boat party along with my team mates.  It was an incredible night.  I met Frank just the night before and also at the party. Frank is a father of two kids.  He was such a great conversationalists and we were talking about balanced score cards!  

Frank was surprised at the fact that I was single.  I wasn’t.  I told him that I never discovered anyone who knew me as the meaning of his life.  I never met someone whom I thought was the meaning of my life.  Maybe he does not exist, and then what was I suppose to do?

Frank told me that I can’t apply balanced scorecards to relationships.  I must be willing to take risks and just go for it.  He figured that I was a lovely person but trapped in a lonely world that consisted only of me.  I shook my head and I confided in him.  I told him that I am active, I meet people.  But I simply didn’t want to settle as the other party will discover my deficiency in love, for him. I wouldn’t be able to give him all he needs. I don’t want to be disappointed in love and I sure won’t want to be the cause of his disappointment. So until then, I will wait.

Frank and I had such great conversations.  We definitely made an impact on each other. It is definitely going to be hard forgetting this Scottish male with his Scottish accent. He reminded me of ‘Zen’ who shared so much with me.

So maybe Frank, you showed me that a great conversationalists, a good listener is what I need in my life. Zen was the same and maybe that was why I still appreciate the time I spent with him. Maybe my balanced scored card was not so balanced after all. Maybe I didn’t understand myself after all.

But love is not something I can grasp in my hands. I chose to let nature take its course. I know you will disagree, Frank. But what else could I do? Perhaps I am not lonely Frank, just misunderstood.

Maybe I should seek to understand , then be understood. Maybe then, I wouldn’t need to look that far.